Just got off work a couple hours ago and now I'm sitting at a seedy internet cafe downtown Ottawa listening to Alanis on my iPod thinking," Why is this song my fucking life?" (Alanis also hails from Ottawa)
I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five
I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
All of the above is sadly true, except the drunk part. If I was feeling drunk, this would be the last place you would find me. I'm pretty sure the Swine Flu did not start in Mexico, it was actually at this joint. I remember coming here on my breaks when I worked at the "Bling" Store (by bling I mean chains that spun and ice that would probably give you an ear infection). There were always cockroaches on the walls.Wow, and as we speak the couple sitting in front of me blasts a Drake song and a homeless man walks in the door. Did I mention the back is a rent a room Karaoke where people do coke? And me? Sitting here with a starbucks, listening to Dragonette on my iPod touch, rerferencing my "Keep calm have a cupcake" journal as I readjust my mother's gold rolex thinking of what I could possibly talk about after not blogging for so long. I did have a laptop, but my cousin broke by laptop beyond repair and then gave 120 $. Thanks?
This is my reality at the moment.
Well, my computer time is runnning out but I'm sure you're getting the general idea.
Mood: Tired.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Thursday, December 17, 2009
BUI
Blogging Under The Influence
I'm high as a motherfucker right now, now, now.
Thinking of really weird things right now.
Chillin' in the living room . Thnking that my cousin (3 years old is posessed by the Omen Kid) So the Devil basically.
I am icecream cke
dating servivee
I'm high as a motherfucker right now, now, now.
Thinking of really weird things right now.
Chillin' in the living room . Thnking that my cousin (3 years old is posessed by the Omen Kid) So the Devil basically.
I am icecream cke
dating servivee
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
The Laughing Heart
your life is your life
don’t let it be clubbed into dank submission.
be on the watch.
there are ways out.
there is a light somewhere.
it may not be much light but
it beats the darkness.
be on the watch.
the gods will offer you chances.
know them.
take them.
you can’t beat death but
you can beat death in life, sometimes.
and the more often you learn to do it,
the more light there will be.
your life is your life.
know it while you have it.
you are marvelous
the gods wait to delight
in you.
— by Charles Bukowski
Current...
Mood:Groggy
Song:Golden Path by Flaming Lips and Chemical Brothers
Monday, December 14, 2009
Cha-Cha-Cha
Hello All!
All 7 of my followers. haha. I know its been a while. So What's been up with me...
-Ive temporarily cut *Matt out of my life.
-Went back to working at the coffee shop.
-Clubbing as usual
-Wii (Cook or be cooked)
-Polyvore
-Watching movies (Watched Interview with a Vampire and Belly last night)
So at the moment watching,“Take the Lead” with my cousins. We tried to play Cranium, but it was an epic fail. I turned 21 this past month, and I went through hell and back all through my 20th year. Which has lead me back to the people who truly love me. I needed to be around them again to keep me grounded and remember what's real.
The Beatles once sang,"All you need is love". Well I love and I am loved. Now it is time for me to do what I love. Once upon a time I was a competitive dancer. I stopped at the age of 16 because I thought my social life was more important, but my passion for dancing has never died. I love clubbing-so I can dance!
It's almost that time again. New Year's resolution time. Where people kick their bad habits. I will stop smoking this year. I will lose 20 pounds this year. Most are a major fail. Why doesn't anyone make a resolution to do something that they love. I love to dance and Im pretty good at it...not gonna lie. So here it is: My goal is to enter an amateur dance competition by 2011. See you on the dance floor yall.
*I am currently under the influence of alcohol and weed. Last week when I was high with Neyo and Shaniqua, we almost killed and deep fried the goldfish and thought about opening an underground Weed Bakery.
Current..
Mood:Mellow Inspired
Song:Runaway Girl by Drake
Location:Shaniquas (Ottawa)
All 7 of my followers. haha. I know its been a while. So What's been up with me...
-Ive temporarily cut *Matt out of my life.
-Went back to working at the coffee shop.
-Clubbing as usual
-Wii (Cook or be cooked)
-Polyvore
-Watching movies (Watched Interview with a Vampire and Belly last night)
So at the moment watching,“Take the Lead” with my cousins. We tried to play Cranium, but it was an epic fail. I turned 21 this past month, and I went through hell and back all through my 20th year. Which has lead me back to the people who truly love me. I needed to be around them again to keep me grounded and remember what's real.
The Beatles once sang,"All you need is love". Well I love and I am loved. Now it is time for me to do what I love. Once upon a time I was a competitive dancer. I stopped at the age of 16 because I thought my social life was more important, but my passion for dancing has never died. I love clubbing-so I can dance!
It's almost that time again. New Year's resolution time. Where people kick their bad habits. I will stop smoking this year. I will lose 20 pounds this year. Most are a major fail. Why doesn't anyone make a resolution to do something that they love. I love to dance and Im pretty good at it...not gonna lie. So here it is: My goal is to enter an amateur dance competition by 2011. See you on the dance floor yall.
*I am currently under the influence of alcohol and weed. Last week when I was high with Neyo and Shaniqua, we almost killed and deep fried the goldfish and thought about opening an underground Weed Bakery.
Current..
Mood:Mellow Inspired
Song:Runaway Girl by Drake
Location:Shaniquas (Ottawa)
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
La vie a la boheme
Currently house-hoppin' in Ottawa.
Avoiding parents, negative people, bill collectors and responsibilities.
Dying to blog about things that can't be leaked on to the eyes of strangers on the web.
Obsessing over polyvore.
Listening to an ode to my former destructive life with *Matt : Lesson Learned by Alicia Keys and John Mayer.
Trying to let anger fade and forgiveness take over.
Missing the only person I feel like talking to from Montreal : *Grace.
Wanting to be in my boyfriend's bed.
Waiting for the art museum to open.
Thinking about walking to the mall for Starbucks and a bagel.
Anticipating a weekend in Montreal with the girls for my 21st.
Amazed at how fast the years went by.
Avoiding parents, negative people, bill collectors and responsibilities.
Dying to blog about things that can't be leaked on to the eyes of strangers on the web.
Obsessing over polyvore.
Listening to an ode to my former destructive life with *Matt : Lesson Learned by Alicia Keys and John Mayer.
Trying to let anger fade and forgiveness take over.
Missing the only person I feel like talking to from Montreal : *Grace.
Wanting to be in my boyfriend's bed.
Waiting for the art museum to open.
Thinking about walking to the mall for Starbucks and a bagel.
Anticipating a weekend in Montreal with the girls for my 21st.
Amazed at how fast the years went by.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Life is a Gift:Part 1
Wait, for now.
Distrust everything, if you have to.
But trust the hours.
Haven't they carried you everywhere, up to now?
Personal events will become interesting again.
Hair will become interesting.
Pain will become interesting.
Buds that open out of season will become lovely again.
Second-hand gloves will become lovely again,
Their memories are what give them the need for other hands.
And the desolation of lovers is the same: that enormous emptiness.
Carved out of such tiny beings as we are asks to be filled
The need for the new love is faithfulness to the old.
Wait.
Don't go too early.
You're tired. But everyone's tired.
But no one is tired enough.
Only wait a while and listen.
Music of hair,
Music of pain,
music of looms weaving all our loves again.
Be there to hear it, it will be the only time,
most of all to hear,
the flute of your whole existence,
rehearsed by the sorrows, play itself into total exhaustion.
You inspire me to be a stronger person. You've taught me to be a better person without even trying. I am so proud of what you've achieved and what you've overcame. Nothing will ever come between us. Don't give up. You and I threw out our bibles years ago, but how can I not have faith in God when after last week you still stand beside me?
Current...
Mood: Grateful
Song:Meet me halfway-Black Eyed Peas
Distrust everything, if you have to.
But trust the hours.
Haven't they carried you everywhere, up to now?
Personal events will become interesting again.
Hair will become interesting.
Pain will become interesting.
Buds that open out of season will become lovely again.
Second-hand gloves will become lovely again,
Their memories are what give them the need for other hands.
And the desolation of lovers is the same: that enormous emptiness.
Carved out of such tiny beings as we are asks to be filled
The need for the new love is faithfulness to the old.
Wait.
Don't go too early.
You're tired. But everyone's tired.
But no one is tired enough.
Only wait a while and listen.
Music of hair,
Music of pain,
music of looms weaving all our loves again.
Be there to hear it, it will be the only time,
most of all to hear,
the flute of your whole existence,
rehearsed by the sorrows, play itself into total exhaustion.
You inspire me to be a stronger person. You've taught me to be a better person without even trying. I am so proud of what you've achieved and what you've overcame. Nothing will ever come between us. Don't give up. You and I threw out our bibles years ago, but how can I not have faith in God when after last week you still stand beside me?
Current...
Mood: Grateful
Song:Meet me halfway-Black Eyed Peas
Monday, November 9, 2009
The September Issue
The skinniest and most powerful woman in America : Anna Wintour.I watched The September Issue last night. It follows Anna, Grace Coddington (creative director) and the Vogue Elite throughout the making of their September 2007 issue.
Anna is just as famous for her icy persona than her impeccable style. Some of her colleagues have even donned her Nuclear Wintour. After watching this documentary I say,"Let the haters hate Miss Wintour." She definitely isn't warm and friendly, but the woman is the best at what she does. Anna basically runs the fashion industry...what do you expect?
I absolutely loved,"The September Issue". If you love fashion, you will love this film. And I mean real fashion lovers, not you little shitheads who like spending time at the fucking mall. By the way, you can find this flim online ;)
Current...
Mood:Content
Song:Number 1 by R.Kelly and Keri Hilson
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